The project so far has been quite a roller coaster ride of emotional ups and downs, and a general feeling of the project progressing a lot more slowly than anticipated.
A few weeks ago, I had a crisis of faith in the project as we were trying to lay out the basement, and finding it impossible to fit in all of the utilities and still have room for the laundry room and dance room that I was planning. We kept trying different configurations, and it just was not fitting, and I was thinking "fuck - is this house too small?" Which lead me down the path of wondering what the heck we were doing, and are we crazy to be doing this, etc, etc, etc...
So here we are on Thanksgiving day, and the project is still progressing so much slower than expected - but IT IS in fact progressing - and I realize we are so fortunate to be able to do something like this. So here is my moment of feeling grateful for this and all the blessings that I enjoy.
Which is not to say that I won't be wallowing in self pity again with the next little (or big) snafu that comes along.
An email today from my friend Rema contained a favorite poem by Rumi (translation by Coleman Barks)
The Guest HouseI am thankful for this reminder that it is ALL good.
This being human is a
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary
awareness comes as an
Welcome and entertain
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows, who
violently sweep your
house empty of it's furniture.
treat each guest honorably.
They maybe clearing you
out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door
laughing, and invite them in.
Be Grateful for whatever comes,because each has been
sent as a guide
So, here is what the house looked like on Wednesday.
Last week I went up to the top floor to take in the view.
Also, last week, I had the opportunity to do a little hands on work. Here we were laying the insulation for the basement floor that will hopefully be poured this coming Monday.
As is her way, our project supervisor continues to take it all in stride.